things don’t always go as planned…

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*Take this post. I already wrote it once and somehow I screwed it up and it disappeared into the ether.

So, I haven’t been around. I haven’t done a lot of the things I committed to. The last two years have not gone AT ALL the way I expected. Wait for it…and that is totally, completely, 100% OK.

We like to think we know how our lives are going to turn out. We work hard, we commit, we do the right things, we prioritize. Somehow though, things go wrong. Or just not right. There’s never enough time, or money, or maybe just not enough you. It kind of feels like you’re in deep water, just trying to keep your head up to breathe. The shore never seems to be any closer and you’re fighting for every breath.

*note: I understand that there are all kinds of people out there, with many really serious problems. This is in no way attempting to comment on the situations that others are in, or to diminish their struggles in any way. This is just me.

Here’s the thing…yeah, things were bad. But I made them worse. I let the things that weren’t ok bleed over into the stuff that was awesome. And I’m saying it here: I screwed up.

I let the fact that I thought I needed to take care of some things keep me from taking care of more important things and myself. I was so focused on trying to slap band-aids on the small stuff that I didn’t realize that other things were bleeding out.

Here’s what I’ve learned. Chill out. Seriously. Take a deep breath and look at your life carefully. Sometimes you have to put your feet down and when you do, you realize that the water you thought was over your head is only waist deep. Take help when it’s offered (even when it is really hard). Share with people, it lightens the load. Approach things head on. Don’t let a burden in one part of your life seep into the great things that you have.

I didn’t do this. I let my life be harder than it had to be. I neglected the things that were important to me (like writing here) in lieu of things that drove me crazy. My priorities were all out of whack. So, I’m trying to change that. I’m putting myself and the people I care about first. You should try it too. There will always be something that is more important. This time, let it be you.

Go ride your bike.

 

Hello!

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I’ve spent the last hour reading and trying to understand the codex and have decided to just throw myself into it, rules be damned! I’ll either get it right or learn one hell of a lesson.

This introductory post isn’t going to be terribly deep. It’s not even going to be terribly introductory. I’m tired and damp. I smell like campfire and I still need to clear today’s partially completed projects off of my bed so that I can go to sleep. That said, I ate delicious sausage and asparagus pizza that we cooked on the wood burning grill in the backyard. It was only appropriate that the sky opened up to christen it’s maiden voyage. I enjoyed my pizza with beer, good company and Futurama – all is right in my world.

Today was highly productive from both a creative and personal perspective. I got tons of things done (including finally getting the page up, if not running) and am really excited about the prospect of diving into tuning and tweaking until everything is exactly the way I want. I’ll try and get an actual introduction and some more info about me up this weekend. Hopefully by then, I’ll have found my voice!

It seems that tweaking will have to wait. I was hoping to throw up a photo I took of the grill. Unfortunately, JPG images appear to be a no go for “security reasons” according to the media uploader. I’m too tired to even attempt to figure it out right now.

Instead, I’m off to bed. Hopefully, by the time anyone reads any of this, I’ll have gotten my act together.

Goodnight world.